I was on a hobby writing site and had been a part of the community for nearly three years. A few months ago I got involved with one of my closest friends...only to find out she is narcissistic. It wasn't visible when we were friends, but once we became romantically involved, things changed dramatically in a really horrible, alarming way. I've never really had anyone give me nightmares before her, and I have had a number of unhealthy relationships. Because of her, I also lost all my friends. A lot of them took her side. A lot of them backstabbed me. I found out my one friend, they were flirting together behind my back.

All I could do was walk away from a hobby I once seriously loved and was passionate about. In a community where I was very well known and popular, though after our break up and my fall out with the other "Friends" that seemed to lessen.

I'm just sitting here like...yeah, I once again lost everything. I realize there are other websites out there for connecting with people, which I will pursue. But this is a sad one to let go of. I feel like I need to go somewhere that no one knows me. Being betrayed, several times over...by people you really loved and trusted. That's hard. That's very hard. My trust issues are off the roof and my self-esteem is slow low right now. I'm trying my best to move on and recover from the abuse I went through with this person.