My big struggle in the past have been social issues. Started since young, etc, etc.

The problem now is that I dont like people. I dont have problems like talking, keeping conversations, or being with people, etc.

I have to admit that Im a strange person.

People seem to "follow a line", like if all "talk the same language", I mean... they behave in a way I dont behave. The jokes they make... the way they express... how they talk... etc... its not the way I do.

Being frank, I feel quite nerveous around people. Ive deal with some social anxiety, but nothing too big. Its just Ive never been "normal", Im always "the strage one". Its long to talk about but it has been like that.

Just by seeing people I feel a strange feeling. It doesnt happen with everyone, all the time, and its not something that "paralizes" me. Its just a strange feeling.

I feel smarter than everyone.

And I am extremely polite. I talk slow, paused.

Anyway, the thng is that I feel between people and me there is a giant gap. They are strange to me, and I am strange to them.

In informal social meetings I feel I have to act, and follow the way they behave, its like "I dont like you, but Im here, so Im just gonna follow they way you all act to fit". Never find people I like, its always me having to adapt to them.

Say "people" is just a generalization, people isnt all the same, bla bla. Im not looking for advices.

Does anyone have problems like this ?