I just found out I haven’t deleted any of my voice messages since 2017. I found all the ones that my transference T had left for me. I forgot that she used to do this thing where she’d talk really fast and then talk a in slightly higher breathy like tone. I don’t know. Maybe that’s what turned me on. I still think it was her eyes. That message wasn’t as weird as the one from my old old Pdoc that I found in 2017.

I know I should delete the ones from my transference T for my own sake. But I kind of want to keep them. I don’t have any of our many emails and I really regret getting rid of them all.