Thank you @Miguel'smom, @BethRags, and @Moose72.

I read about spoon theory and I better understand what you wrote @Miguel'smom. I guess I was writing about that without knowing about it.

I'm also envious about others who can just get up and do as they like. I think really long term these days and I think through almost every action and it's long term effect. It doesn't exactly help my anxiety.

It takes a lot of energy to get up, get going, and keep going. I think others have the luxury of going on autopilot and just going with things. We on the other hand have to think things through and decide where we want to use our energy.