I hardly ever make eye contact in therapy, I know my eyes are looking all around the room or anywhere but him. If I do look at him then I find it hard to think about what I'm saying, and lose my train of thought.

In the past horrible things have happened to me while people demanded me to look at them as well, so don't know if that has anything to do with it.
I don't think he's ever brought it up but I kind of wish he would.