I am pissed off that my pdoc hasn't called me back. Of course, what was so important yesterday isn't as important today. Except the issues with my short term memory. That still goes round and round in my brain. As a matter of fact, I'm still having racing thoughts. But I went to the dog park with my friend today and that was nice and relaxing. Brain felt good. So maybe I don't do enough to distract myself? I always have to be doing something. Which I guess is true of everybody? I'm not sure. It's like that recent thread here that talks about the "normies" verses us. How their brains work. Just moment to moment. Of course, my friend was going on to me about what was in her brain, earlier today, and it was kind of all over the place, but she has ADHD so I'm not sure if that's why she's like that. But yeah my pdoc and my case manager aren't taking my calls seriously! I'm not suicidal- at this point- but who knows. I guess when my messages don't say "I'm suicidal" then they don't call back? Is this making sense? I have to be on alert for my phone to ring and keep it near me at all times IN CASE they call me back, but then they don't so i'm on alert for nothing. Am I not WORTHY of a call back? Are they so busy taking care of all their other patients that I get chucked my the wayside?