thank you all for reading and replying.

I had my session. I really didnt know what to expect.

she was quiet most of the session. it was really awkward. i started sharing about my week, like usual...just to test the waters...and she didnt say anything. she wont reply or participate in the conversation at all..after i was done talking ...she didnt acknowledge anything that i said. she asked "why did u want to cancel the session?"
i was really taken aback. she completely ignored what i had shared like it was completely useless . i felt even more embarrassed, that all this time that i was talking she was just waiting for me to finish , to ask this question. she had no interest in hearing about how my week went.
yeah..felt really crappy then. i told her why and she just listened and didfnt say anything.

there were very long silences and she just didnt seem interested at all.
it felt like she was punishing me. she was mad at me, but wont come out right and say it. i could see it in her face and her lack of participation in session created so much tension .
at the end i did tell her i felt shes getting irritated by me...she just nodded. and again didnt say anything ...our time was up and she ended the session.

very weird, because she always has a lot to say and today i was talking to a wall.

Her completely ignoring what i had shared in the beginning of the session was very hurtful. i had shared something that was important to me, and it was like she heard nothing.

i am really thinking of terminating with her. its sheer stupidity that i still can not make up my mind. after todays session, she may also be thinking the same.

I keep thinking maybe next session will be different and better. so far it hasnt been.