I'm feeling some ups and downs about my upcoming trip. I still have some anxiety about going, but I feel like I must do it. I spent some time this afternoon getting stuff together.

Today I was on the phone with my only friend and sister. Those two are the only people I have to converse with. For some reason I felt like speaking to those two depressed me. I seem to want other people in my life and not be so reliant on them. I get the feeling that my friend and sister feel the same way about me. I guess we're hanging on to each other because that's all there is for us.