Hello WovenGalaxy

I'm a very private person.
There is really no one that knows what is going on in my life.
I don't have any close friends.

I don't know you, and I don't know him.
But just from what you have posted, I'd say you have much stronger feelings for this guy than you are willing to admit to yourself.
I'd suggest you focus on you, rather than what he is thinking.
Figure out what you really want from him, then just bluntly tell him.
That's really the only way you will figure out what the future holds.

Just my two cents for what it is worth.

BOM