My journey has been different, but there was a period of my life, for almost 7 years, where I was so disabled I could hardly take care of myself. I lost my BF, had to drop of grad school, and lost a potential career, my disability was a problem in my family. But then I overcame it and got better. I spent a lot of time feeling depressed and sad because I never got to experience what other people were experiencing.

What we lose, it is sad. But as BOM said...there is still more life to live. And the past is what it is. I never got to fully experience a large portion of my twenties, never got to get married. I never got to experience being a parent. But there is still so much to life. New dreams, new friendships, relationships, new jobs, new adventures. I extend deepest condolences to your loss. Just know that this isn't the end, any time can be a new chapter or new beginning.