yesterday a woman said to me your so put together, you're beautiful. today I'm wanting to off myself. I have a plan but not the means. can't take time off work to hospitalized myself. I know I'd shock my whole family they think I'm doing so well.

yesterday I sincerely prayed to God to fix the mess I made of my life. today I'm suicidal. feeling distraught over my everyday problems how unending they are. my head is stable my thoughts are not, I see an apt opening up soon.