those are good ideas perna... im trying to think of routines i do.. and you're right.. there are things. It sounds bad.. but when i get down, showering is on the "maybe" list.. so i am forcing myself to shower and give a crap about how i look. i usually take a trip downtown on those days too.. get a bbq'd sausage from the vendor at the park by the library.

i also have a routine of listening to voicemails from him... and i leave voicemails for him. He says that is ok.

i will have to think of more.

i feel better physically today at least. i worked hard on a complicated media system for an artist friend of mine and all that time hunched over a computer system shot my back to hell.

i'm trying to plan activities and schedule things to give myself at least one important thing per day... i don't have a job exactly.. sort of but not.

tomorrow it will be just two weeks. i wish he had taken vacation during the time my parents will be visiting.. company helps.