I don't know what to say but nobody has answered you and I feel bad for that. I think you need to get help. Can you write a note that you need help and give it to you sister or to someone else who can get you help? Try to find something to do besides writing funeral plans; that is only going to make you feel worse and is probably dangerous.
Please seek help immediately. You are in an urgent situation.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD.
Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily
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