I'm emotional and frustrated.

Sometimes it seems like there's a force in life working against me every single day, every step I take. No matter what I can't get ahead. I sit here and wish I could do all the things other people are doing. I WANT a good career. I WANT a life partner. I WANT a family. I WANT to travel. I WANT to have opportunities. Why does it seem my life is a constant struggle and challenge, everything I do is thwarted, challenging and problematic? I just want to have a happy life. I'm only getting older, when...when is it going to be MY time? Or am I going to grow old and it's always going to be the same thing? In 5 years I will be 40 and I've gotten nowhere. I am so frustrated. And nothing ever goes smoothly. Everything is always so hard.

I just wish for once I could have the kind of life I dream of and be given opportunities. Not coping well.