Thank you for asking that question again about why I keep coming back to thinking that I have to stop seeing you at some point. Today was the day I was ready to really hear it, and I have already started digging into the answer. I'm proud of myself that I didn't get all defensive for once... I'm getting better at the pausing and responding thing instead of emotionally reacting. In the moment, I couldn't fully answer it I guess because I know what the answer is NOT... it is not yet "Because I want to stop." Until that is the answer, you're stuck with me! Because I don't want to stop, of course. Not completely. I don't need or want to come weekly anymore which we have already addressed. Thank you for letting me take the lead on the frequency.

Anyway I've already written a page and a half attempting to get to the 'why'. Maybe it's as easy as "I just can't wrap my head around the thought that you're not sick of me yet"???? Nah. Nothing's ever that easy inside my head....

See you in a month.