hi and welcome. it's hard sometimes in a long term relationship...we fall into "ruts". we feel like we're not getting the wonderful things out of the relationship that we got in the beginning and miss it. only the ppl in the relationship can bring its luster back.

i think the p'doc taking you off of all your meds has increased your anxiety, depression and general discomfort.

one time when i left my husband, my friend said something very smart to me (we're together and married 18 yrs now) she said, "if you put 1/10 the energy into this relationship as what it would take to build a new one...this one would be fine." it made alot of sense to me. however, putting into a relationship is a two way street and my husband worked on it as well.

i hope you can find happiness again. i wouldn't make any life changing moves just going off of meds and with your anxiety/depression being worse. sometimes we don't make the right decisions in those states.

wait until you're feeling better and analyze the situation more. that's what i would be inclined to do.

gl and let us know?