I'm anxious about everything. I was dealing with a panic attack earlier. I chewed on aspirin just to help any potential blood clots, since I haven't been able to make it into the doctor's for exams and blood tests for over 19 months. I know the new news is that aspirin is no longer recommended for those who don't have diagnosed heart conditions or hypertension or stroke. But it still puts my mind at ease to at least take aspirin on occasion when I feel this way. I'm not taking any anti-anxiety, and the VA has frowned upon prescribing that. So I deal with anxiety the best way I can. It's the heart palpitations that bother me every single night. Today I'm anxious because my sister and I are estranged and yesterday was her birthday. I also haven't heard back from my mom, and I worry about her health. I don't live near any family, and I've not seen them for Thanksgiving or Christmas in over 25 years. I'm really alone, even though I do have local and distal friends.