To the OP,

I know how you feel. I am the same way usually when I am unstable. I just do whatever comes to mind, no matter the consequence. I became homeless during one of my psychotic episodes; although I learned a lot from it, I still got psychotic again afterward due to non-compliance.

I am now older and stable. I don't react to my emotions now. I'm actually very complacent- calm to the point of having no emotions. I don't know what is worse- being emotional or complacent. I have feelings still and at times want to react emotionally but am apathetic? I think having emotions sometimes is good. But, I understand that you are reacting to your emotions and causing trouble. I apologize that I don't have any good solutions or encouragement. I must say that as I became older, I am happier to be calmer. I know how it is to cause trouble for others and myself. Compliance helps a lot for me. I never went through CBT nor DBT. I just aged and my emotions died down. I still have feelings but not as strong.

I hope you become calmer too. I admit, it helps to not react emotionally under stress. Most people do though. I really don't know what is the best way to deal with stress. I try to avoid it as much as possible. But, this is no solution. I hope the other people's replies will help you. I just wanted to commiserate with you.