This weekend (Saturday night at like 730) I had an appointment with a potential new T. She's nice. She's a bit scattered I think but she seems to have a good memory. She's older than me by about 30 years and she says she has no plans of retirement but that she also cannot guarantee the future. She also said she has some health problems and that sometimes she has to cancel at the last minute because of it. But.....here's the good part, she says she can help me. She doesn't know how to set up Zoom so I set up the appointment for us and then admitted her into the call. But she says that she does text, which is how most of our conversations have started/continued. And she takes Zelle so it is super easy to pay her. Plus she takes my insurance. I'm not sold on her yet, as it's only been one appointment, and I'm a bit worried about her health and age and stuff and she said she is probably taking the month of December off. But that I could still text if I had a problem. I decided to ask her for a second appointment, since the first one is always so much information gathering. She talked a lot, and fast, she has ADHD too like me, and she said she has been in a mental hospital and has worked in a mental hospital, so she has been on both sides! I'm still hoping my case manager will come up with some names of people I can try because I'm not sure about her. But I am willing to give it another go and see how it is. She said she is pretty booked but she was willing to take me because I was anxious for a therapist. So she said as long as I could be flexible she could fit me in. She says with longer term clients she usually does every two weeks but with new clients she likes to do once a week. So we'll see. I'm nervous but I am also hanging onto hope that she can help me.

On another note, I'm not sure what is going on with IOP. I'm not sure if it got extended or what. And I was supposed to have group on Friday and I logged onto Zoom and was never let in. I contacted my case manager who got back to me half an hour later and said it must be technical difficulties so I didn't have group on Friday. It will be 45 days that I have been in IOP come Thursday so I am wondering what is up. My IOP individual T goes on vacation tomorrow. I asked her for a letter, or email, with some validation in it but I don't know if she is going to do that for me. I hope so but I am trying not to get my hopes up. I know she wants me to do internal validation which I really don't know what she is talking about but I am hoping she will give me a letter or an email or something that I can hang on to while she is gone and after I can't see her anymore. I'll be hurt and disappointed if she doesn't. But I best be prepared for that.