Had a good day yesterday. I went with my mom, brother, sister (And her bf) to a butterfly garden. It was a big greenhouse with exotic animals and butterflies flying around the place, ants, scorpions, parrots, fish, frogs, turtles, plants, a flamingo, etc... Very hot inside - It was like being in the jungle. Then we went to the pumpkin patch.

My grandmother could be getting dementia.. (Her mother had it). She's very reclusive, apathetic now - Not much of a sense of humour. On FB all day and doesn't want family to visit. I have no problem with her but the rest of my family does.

I stayed at my sisters apartment for 2 nights with her bf. I smoked weed at night and listened to a podcast. They've bought a lot of plants etc.. I bought a Lion's Mane mushroom growing kit - So I'll bring that home and maybe prepare myself for growing psilocybin. I want to learn about cacti as well - maybe buy some San Pedro or Peyote etc. My brother grows plants and sells them to the Asians here for hundreds of dollars.

This morning was awful cuz my sister and her bf woke up like 2 hours earlier than me. I should have woke up at the same time but I tried to go back to sleep and couldn't because they were making noise - I shouldn't be bothered. Idk why I was so agitated.. I needed a coffee. I had to walk to the kitchen to take the Vyvanse to wake me up cuz the cats were drinking out of my water glass. There's only one bathroom and they were using it. I walked to the gas station - There was a spot under my lip, I was walking fast.. No cup holder, so much traffic (Really noisy and dangerous). When I got back, I couldn't find the apartment. Then I had a shower - The skin allergy from the vaccine seems to be getting worse, there's dirt all over the floor.

I'm OK now though after the Vyvanse and coffee + nicotine gum. I didn't take zopiclone the past 2 nights - I think cuz the THC helps with the hypnagogic heart palpitations.

I get back home a few days before I see my psychiatrist - So I have to prepare what to say to him.. I'll mention the 3x DP/DR episodes this year which isn't much, maybe decrease the olanzepine from 10mg to 7.5mg and change the 2x 5mg dextroamphetamine tablets to a 15mg Dexedrine spansule.