So as I said last night I took 30mil of melatonin, 2 zzquil gummies, and 2 Benadryl. I wasn’t feeling the greatest physically and I had therapy early in the morning. It was hard hiding how I was feeling so I was honest with her about what I took and why. She gave me this peanut butter chocolate protein drink from the staff fridge and then decided that I should call the poison control center or the nurses hotline just to make sure I was ok. Of course I was freaking out I was going to go inpatient but she said since it was not a S OD she didn’t think I needed to go IP but she wanted to make sure I was ok physically. I asked if we could call the poison control center right then. So she she called them and didn’t say who she was or who I was for confidentiality purposes. She just said she was with a person who had taken a lot of stuff last night to try to sleep. The poison control guy said I had taken a lot and to not do it again but if I was alert and breathing ok. Which my therapist said I was, then I should be ok but to talk to my doctor since obviously what I’m doing isn’t working. So after my T and I made a loose meal plan. I had her bring in my mom towards the end to explain what was going on so she was aware. She said she really appreciated me being honest with her. I’m glad I can finally be honest with a therapist because she knows about eating disorders and the others didn’t.

I liked that this therapist didn’t just say you need to go to the hospital. I like that she took the time to call the poison control center herself. And it was nice of her to give me a protein drink too. She said that she cared about me and just wanted to make sure I was fine. And that we were a team.

But basically today I’m drowsy and I have a med hangover and I’m kinda anxious. But I was happy with how therapy went.