I live alone in a 2-bedroom basement apartment in the back of a building. The view is of a rock wall, and no sunlight gets in the windows. It is cold and damp. The apartment is isolating and overly quiet. My anxiety is getting worse because the weather is changing. It's getting dark earlier, and pretty soon the winds will be coming, snow, power outages, even more cold and isolation. I live alone, but a friend was going to move into my second bedroom to be a support person for me. Just as long as he was going to be within the apartment mornings, evenings, and overnight....I would have been fine. We have been planning this for awhile, measuring where furniture would go, what we need to buy, etc, etc. Since yesterday, he has decided to stay at his own apartment to get his charity work done. He says that I am a distraction and he can't concentrate. He says that his heart weeps for me and he wants to spend time with me instead of staying focused on his work. Now I am totally alone again. He has been staying with me for a number of weeks now. My anxiety levels weren't as bad. We went out shopping, eating, driving, etc. I was out in the world again. But now I'm locked in my apartment without ANY human contact. My anxiety is getting bad, and the dark/night scares me. I'm on Clonazepam, but it doesn't really work all that well. When my fears get too high, I start switching over into psychoses. I've been trying to find a STRANGER to move into the second bedroom, rent free, to help alleviate my anxiety. But strangers scare me, and no one appropriate has applied. I don't even have family or friends to turn to. I am all alone. I cry and talk to God, but I'm only going to get worse if someone doesn't come along. I'm scared.