You're not alone @Crook32. I also live in fear.

I have come to understand that my anxiety and depression are the cause of all of this fear. The anxiety triggers the fear and the depression continues to feed it and causes it to grow.

I wish I had some wise words for you, but I don't. I just cope day to day with the knowledge that the fear is my mind playing tricks on me. It doesn't make it any less real though. I still feel like a fraud, like someone will come to know one day that I am not who I seem to be.

You're not alone in this. Maybe write about your fears if you can, or talk them out with your pdoc or T.

Take things slow and be kind to yourself, you deserve it.