Dear Ex T,

And finally I feel like I can breathe. Finally I feel like I can start to move on... Properly. Finally I feel like I can let myself free.

Dear Potential New T,

Let's see how you are at replying to emails then shall we? A test? Well I wouldn't be me if I didn't test you!

Dear Temp T,

Honestly, I meant everything I said. In a way I am gutted that you don't feel like the right person to carry on with here, but I am so glad that I found you, because you really really seemed to get it, and I needed that. You really seemed to understand the relationship that I had with Ex T. I think you understood it because I think you have experienced it before, with another client. And I think you would have provided that for me again. Oh how I am tempted! But I just don't think I am in a place where I need that anymore. I want it... God I want it so bad, but I really do wonder whether what I need is something different. Time will tell, I guess, and I am grateful that you said I can come back. If it doesn't work here. If she is too 'hard', too 'strict'. Thank you for that, too.

You have been the transition that I should have had with Ex T. You have been the transition that her plan should have facilitated and I honestly can't thank you enough for that. But I also thank me, because I'm the one that kept looking. I'm the one who didn't settle for anything less than what was right for me. I've come a long long way in that respect!!