Dear IOP Individual T: I wonder if you would have fought for me to stay in program like my case manager did. I wonder if you were for kicking me out of IOP. I wonder how you are going to feel about me still being in program when you get back from vacation. You may have thought you would never have to see me again. Now we are going to have this awkward session and I wonder how you are going to deal with that? I know you want me to be vulnerable with you but I think you've lost some of my trust. I freely gave it to you in the beginning but slowly things have eroded that trust between us. The darndest thing is that I really do like you. And I really want you to like me. Pathetic. I am pathetic. Well you are on vacation now so hopefully you aren't thinking of me. Hopefully you are enjoying your time off and not thinking about work. Oh and I got an appointment with my psychiatrist since the ER doctor only gave me 10 days of medication and didn't give me any refills. I've read your email to me several times and it just makes me sad. I do think you tried your best. I do think you are right, I need a more experienced T. I wish I had found you five years from now when you had some experience under your belt because you are a good T. I still think we could have done some good work together. I'm awfully forgiving. I'm thinking of you even if I am the farthest thing from your mind. Kit