I'm so sorry you're hurting, and your system is hurting.

Are you in therapy? Your T would be able to help your system figure out why the persecutors are harming you. Is there a warm line or hotline you can call to help you?

What coping skills has your T taught you and/or your system to cope with these things?

What helped our system over the years was learning to communicate with the scared and hurting alters (who appear more mean than they are, since they have internalized the abusers' ways), and then offer them ways to cope with trauma and other jobs to protect instead of harm. It takes time.

It's all connected with self-injury in some way, even if it feels like other-injury. It's what children do when they punish themselves or blame themselves because the betrayal trauma is too painful to acknowledge, and because it was never their fault, but no one told them it was never their fault. So they act out toward themselves and/or others (which can include others in your system).

There are also helping alters inside who might be able to help with the persecutor alters. It takes communicating with them, too. Sometimes drawing things out might help when words can't be expressed. If you're in counseling, tell your counselor about what you told us, and show your counselor your drawing, journaling, etc.

Hang in there.