I know very little about psychosis. I am sorry that it afflicted you in the past and hope the present unhappy situation are you in does not cause a relapse of the psychosis. I sure hope that people here struggling with the situation you describe will see your post and respond to it. You deserve so much more than life has given you! I am alone pretty much all the time but because of my depression and anxiety. Being alone when one doesn't want to be is so painful!