I feel like I achieved something today. I made cake. Nothing fancy like soupe, it’s just a mix, but I did it. In a bit I’ll go to the store to hopefully get pumpkin spice frosting. It’s spice cake and October so I thought that sounded good.

I’m really happy with myself for getting more motivated to do more. For years my bipolar was in control. Since my new meds 5-6 years ago I have achieved stability and to be honest at first I didn’t trust it. It’s only been recently and slowly that I’m climbing out of the pit of fear. Fear that the moods would come and obliviate everything. I’m slowly doing more and more of what the normals think of as everyday natural stuff to do, or life!

I still haven’t ventured into the changing rooms at the Y yet. I didn’t sleep last night so I didn’t go this morning. I managed about 45 minutes of sleep after the alarm went off. That remains my biggest obstacle, sleep. I like having vivid movie quality dreams I just wish I’d get more regular sleep.