Thanks QuietMind. It's been a rough old road! I had a session with my Potential New T the other day and I realised that in order to really get closure, to really be able to move on in a healthy way, I did have to tell Ex T how I felt. How angry I was at how I had just been left out in the cold. How I felt she should have had a plan. How things should have been handled differently. Despite the respect and empathy I have for her current situation. Despite the love I feel for her.

She replied positively, saying that the email was very hard to read because I was right. She let me down. She said she did have a plan in place but she didnt use it because she thought she could do it herself. She didn't accept her supervisors invitation to contact clients because she wanted to do it herself. She thought that what she had been able to do had been enough, but she sees now that for me, at least, it was not enough. She said that my anger was justified and that she would take my concerns to her supervisor, to emphasize the importance of making sure clients are kept safe, I hope.

She apologised, an I forgave her. I do know that everything she did would have been the best she could have done at the time, with her clients interest at heart, but she now heard that it wasn't good enough, and accepted her shortcomings. That was what I needed, and I am so grateful that she could provide that closure for me, and open the door to go and see her one last time... To say goodbye properly. I will get the chance to just sit with her, feeling, being, remembering.

And then I will move on as best I can... To either Temp T or Potential New T. If I can make a decision!!!