So, I tested the emails with Potential New T this week, and she wrote a good one in reply. I guess by me paying for her time, her half an hour, it means that I will get a considered, though about, measured reply.

This feels like a far more formal relationship than I am used to with Ex T, but I had a thought the other day, that maybe that IS what I need. Maybe I never could share these things with Ex T because we were TOO close. I don't know, just an idea in its infancy, but it seemed to fit when I thought of it.

And maybe that is why Temp T doesn't feel right... Because she feels too much like Ex T, in the way she works, in the way the relationship could develop. Maybe that's why she was perfect for this transition.....

When Potential New T said in her email about the respect that she had for my Teenage Ones need for safety, and something about it not being with her, I can only guess that she meant that I am still free to choose here... That I may not decide to work with her.

Well when I saw those words I felt a little sting, too. More than that I can't really explain, but I wonder whether it was an "ouch.... But I do want to learn to trust you".

Food for thought.....