I do a lot of similar food things but I count calories and will often restrict. I’m trying to lose weight and It’s been heavily suggested I have an ED. I don’t drink though.

You just seem like based on your post that you are basically dieting regularly and giving yourself a cheat day every now and then to stay on track.

I don’t know anything about drinking.

But talk to a therapist or a doctor about all of this since it can sometimes turn into something bigger.