I am distracting myself by doing more tasks. I was getting involved with abusive men and leading a rather sad life. Now, for over two months, I got another job offer and am applying to grad school. I am a bit manic in my approach but life is great! I could not be better. I understand how you feel though about feeling depressed and wanting to do nothing: obsessing about the sadness. I encourage you to find hobbies or something you'd like to do.