I got my Sams Club order fixed. They issued a refund and I reordered it to my correct address. So I guess the new homeowners at my last place just got a free box of protein shakes. I’m not exactly sure what they will or are able to do though. I’d personally return it to Sams Club and explain things or drop it back off at FedEx. But that may be too much of a hassle for them so if they choose to keep it I don’t care. I don’t want to create more work for people when it was my fault.

I was feeling kinda cranky and I knew it was food related so I ate a giant pumpkin muffin and I had a mug of mint herbal tea and I’m feeling better now.

I want to go out but I’m not really sure where I want to go. I never go out on the weekend. Even before Covid hit I never went out except during school hours and very early on Sunday mornings. Also all my therapists live in the area and I don’t want to run into any of them.

I’m still kinda anxious so I took half my night meds and a Valium with a mug of tension tamer tea. I told my therapist I sometimes take Valium with tension tamer tea and it works really well and she said “of course it’s going to work really well” she thought it was funny but I’m going to try to scale back on these med discussions since people can get pissed real fast. She was great on Monday with the whole thing but I really need to cool it and just stick to my melatonin. I already threw out 2 of my other kinds so now I only have the one kind of melatonin. I still take 20 mil but when I’ve tried taking just 10 I wake up at 11-1 at night and have trouble getting back to sleep.

But I respect this therapist a lot and I don’t feel transference with her so I’d just like to do things correctly so nothing ends up happening.

I’m really tired right now for some reason. I haven’t taken any melatonin or used my sleep lotion. I wonder if it was the tea/Valium combo. I feel fine physically just tired.