I left a hobby I loved and was passionate about because my abusive ex is there and all the people who betrayed and backstabbed me. I'm trying to find new things but I literally have no idea what to do. I still write and do artwork but I can't seem to connect with other artists and writers on social media platforms so I still feel like I have no community, no place for me to share my art and writing. FB intimidates me and makes me anxious. Instagram, people aren't interested in me because I'm not famous or high profile. I tried Deviant Art but have gone nowhere. I'm on Pinterest but I don't know if people see my posts or not. I'm trying Live Journal but all the communities and groups I'm interested in are dead and I can't seem to find people I can relate to. Social media is a very lonely world.

I'm doing photography. I'm doing artwork. I'm writing poetry and a novel. I go for long walks. I sing a lot, I love to sing. But I have no activities with other people and no way to connect with them. It's just hard. I have hobbies and I do things but I'm alone most of the time.

I was in grad school at one time but I became disabled and had to withdraw. I lose dream after dream due to illness. I did well in grad school, my GPA is a 3.9 but I wasn't able to continue. I'd love to finish but it's expensive and I'm so in debt with student loans I had to do a chapter 13 bankruptcy. The last thing I need is more student loan debt. I wish higher education wasn't so expensive. I wish I could say my life is great and fantastic, but to me, life is Hell and unbearable most of the time. Sometimes I get some good days though and I'm thankful for them.