@cinnamonsun, I'm sorry you were so upset. I hear you. It's disheartening. I am a music producer, artist, engineer and author. And I am still waiting on my big break. I too wanted to make an impact in the metaphysical world, but I have nothing to offer at the moment. But I know one day something will stick. The same is true for you. You just have to keep trying. I'm sending good thoughts your way. I hope you feel better soon.