Learning how to sit with distress all over again,, this isn't fun (right now)!!! I have this urge to waste all my money my lawyer would tell me to act on that if I had one that is because the last one i saw poked fun at me because she could tell I was a Kool Kat. I'm pulling out all the stops to sleep tonight (within reason the plan is to ) and there aren't much to take except the except the "gotta do this gotta do that gotta keep on keeping on gotta keep writing can't stop playing do this no do that no rest not "no, rest" just "no rest" so I'm taking a very small dose of valium, 2mg of melatonin, lavender & chamomile tea, 50mg of thorazine (and an extra one if that doesn't work), along with my regular meds I have NO set plans tomorrow so hopefully I'll sleep like 12 hours. I don't know what's going on but I just feel so FRANTICally FRENZIED!!