I'm thinking about retirement. I could work 20 years or decide to strictly live off disability in 4 years.

I'm leaning towards planning to retire in 4 years and just be disabled. my debts should all be paid off, I need to quit trying to live like a normal person. I'm having a hard time.

maybe I'll rethink it in 4 years, see how I feel. I used to aspire to get off disability. not anymore, my job in my field of study is soooooo demanding. it's really too much for me.

my health is starting to waver, I just want to chill and be at peace. but than I might get bored and try to work for fun. maybe I should do that now, but not quite ready for that yet.