((((Justgiving)))) -- I feel for you.

It's really hard not having friends. I don't really have any true friends, it seems. It's all so much more difficult when you're going through really bad times and there's no one there and no one to call.

Like you, Justgiving, I don't feel I have anyone to do any of the things you mentioned in your post. I sure wish I did. And I supposedly have a b/f.

Apparently I'm just not good at making or keeping friends... or maybe I'm just not the kind of person that people want to be friends with. It doesn't help when I've moved away or they've moved away -- after a while, things just seem to fizzle away and/or people end up going in different directions and don't have much or anything in common any more... It sucks.