SPN was something I could relate to. The two brothers had horrible lives. But still tried to help people and do good in the world. Sam was in school to be a lawyer and left to help his brother find their father and never got to finish school. His entire life was derailed and interrupted by forces beyond his control and he experienced a traumatic loss to a Supernatural creature. To me, it's just about making the best out of your lot in life, loving yourself even though you know you make mistakes and aren't perfect. It's about accepting the pain and suffering in life, but finding purpose and holding to it as much as possible. They aren't someone anyone would look at and value or idolize. But they are two amazing people trying to save the world. To me, it's a beautiful, tragic story.

I made a lot of friends through this fandom. It helped me cope with the tumultuous roller coaster events of my life over the past three years. Misha Collins inspired hope in me. They had a campaign for mental health to Always Keep Fighting. Because one of the stars of the show struggles with depression. I found and lost love. I went to a convention. I had this whole incredible experience with this show and it's hard that it's over and now part of the past. But all good things come to an end. I know this show and its philosophy and message continue to impact me and always will. But I can't handle watching a lot of the last season. I want to just remember the earlier seasons and let it live on in my heart and memory like that.

It's really amazing a show or the actors could have such an influence on your life. The character Castiel is the first character on television I was ever able to relate to through my experiences of social awkwardness and social anxiety, and feeling very out of place in the world. He is also LGBTQ. Which is underrepresented in TV. I was like, ah, finally, there's someone like me on TV.