I'm grumpy but also in a good mood? Is that a thing? I feel I'm often a shade of sunshine and a whole fierce fireball.

There are things I am angry about, but it's not directed at a specific person. Because it's no one's fault. It's more like, anger about some of my life experiences. I'm considering getting a punching bag and installing it in the garage upfront. So when I'm moody and irritable I've got something to expel my frustrations on. I've heard this helps people.