I took all the sleeping meds i can take last night and still only got four hours of sleep broken from stupid graphic nightmares about cutting my foot off (very reminiscent of a hallucination I had in the hospital a few months back)I just took another thorazine about an hour ago and I'm supposed to go to group tonight. I hope I get to talk to the doc. I really need to take as much thorazine as I'm allowed right now I'm starting to realize that becausae at this rate I will hurt myself I'm Iaready feeling every injury I've had in the past year (hip especially) although I'm not really registering the pain I just know it hurts but I don't really feel the hurt if that makes any sense. I'm worried about dinner with my mom,,I don't want to eat today. Idk if it was the nightmare but all day I've wanted to self harm. I feel awfully lost too (also like when I was in the hospital.