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Originally Posted by BethRags
Today brought a true storm. The rain has been bashing down all day. What a treat!
I did something I can't remember ever doing before unless I was sick. I have pretty much stayed in bed until a short while ago. I was listening to the rain and just relaxing, Still battling panic, worry, and mind states like those that just won't quit. What really scares me is that it feels like meds aren't helping, at all. I've been on so many meds, there's no where to go with medication. I'm keeping my breathing good and healthy and trying to do some CBT stuff. I'm considering that this may be a mixed state because I have the depression/anxiety, but also have brief times of an ecstasy feeling. Stuck, stuck, stuck.
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I saw on the news that areas of California we getting a huge storm and hoped it wasn't going to hit you
As for laying in bed listening to the rain and hopefully some wind for me is the best soothing thing on the planet. I've bought tons of music in the past and even a machine that offered all kinds of sound and Nothing compares of course.
You recent stop of Lamictal cold turkey? I have done that numerous times in the past and I always fell into feelings that you are having
Couple years ago I went off all my meds but I did a slow taper on one med at a time and factoring in the half life too.
I hate that right now you have a sucky out of state useless zoom Pdoc
Hope your able to see the new Pdoc soon.
Until then? just work coping skills until something helps even if its just a little. I hate that you feeling just about all emotions Its really hard.
Question....... when was the last time you did something just for yourself???