I am so very, very sorry for the horrific ordeal you are suffering and have been suffering. It is the most heartbreaking situation I have ever read about here on the Forums. Just absolutely heartbreaking. I can't even begin to imagine what you have gone through and are still going through.

There is a procedure, a procedure of last resort called a bilateral cingulotomy. Only a few hospitals offer it. Two I can think of are UCLA and Columbia University Medical Center. I don't know what the success rate is of the procedure. It has risks and can cause short term and long term side effects. As you can imagine, it is a very, very controversial procedure. To be honest, I don't know if I would have the procedure, assuming I met the qualifications for it, if I was in the same situation as you.

Wish I knew what to say that would be helpful to you. What a terrible and agonizing burden you bear. Reading your post brought tears to my eyes. Just utterly heartbreaking!