Dear Dr S.

I'm struggling and not struggling at the same time. Lots of wanting and missing, wishing we could talk - just talk. Not therapy except it is therapy. Which is why we can't talk. It is therapy because so much of my therapy is about experiencing that positive regard. You are feeling like mommy and I want you here. The struggling is just because you are not here. I wish I could figure out how to feel hereness when you are not here.

-me