After many years Of domestic violence and abuse, I am left with severe complex ptsd. It is so horrible that I feel completely unsafe all the time and I feel constant impending doom. It also makes me dread the future, aging, illness, dying to the point of being paralyzed with fear, unable to function.

I just feel convinced that my entire life will be miserable and scary and that I will not live long at all. Doing even the littlest things is torture. Psych doctors and therapists and other treatments are useless foe me because nothing and no one helps. I am so worried that I am going to stay stuck in this hell forever.