A couple things today made me absolutely furious. So much that I daydreamed about temporarily leaving my husband. I've cooled off a bit, but realize I must make a couple changes in life. I need more independence and need to do more things MY WAY! I realized that even little things are missing and starting to hurt.

We're up north in the country and will later visit my husband's old friend and his wife for the first time in years. Hubby says he's nervous. I get the feeling we wouldn't be here if I hadn't pushed the reunion. He doesn't want to see anyone here. That defeats the whole danged point of even being in this particular country this year.

We went to the bank today for a withdrawal from an account in my name. It didn't happen because the bank clerk said that my signature didn't sufficiently match MY signature in their system. The clerk was a b**** and we ended up having to leave empty handed. Not sure what to say about that. We were going to go to another bank employee but would have had to wait forever, and wouldn't.