My Pdoc keeps pushing every time I see him about complete bottom surgery and I’m not at this point right now in my life ready for that. He’s all like “ I can get you in one of the best hospitals in the country with one of the best surgeons in the country.” I have confidence in my insurance paying for the surgery since they paid for the other 2. But the issue is the traveling which I doubt insurance will pay for and they don’t have Ronald McDonald houses for adults and I don’t know about follow up care or how many appointments I’d have. I’ve heard the risk for failure is not a small percentage either. But basically I’m just not ready and he’s being a bit pushy. So I need to be a bit assertive at my next session. At this point I’m pretty chill being a dude with a womens down there part. Especially since everything inside is taken out so I don’t feel the hormones or the PMS anymore. I don’t really have any bottom dysphoria. I mean I do often tug my hoodie down a lot when I’m in public. But I can also get a prosthetic too. But every session is the same with my Pdoc last Monday I’m like “hey I got a hysterectomy and I feel great.” And he’s like “oh great. Have you thought about getting the full surgery?”

I mean I’m glad there’s options in the states now unlike before when you’d have to go to like Sweden but I’m just plainly not ready and that’s what matters the most.