I wrote the program director and the program coordinator but have not heard anything yet. I don't expect to hear from them soon. I am having impostor syndrome. I should be proud of what I'm pursuing and have achieved. I try to be confident yet feel as if the world is on my shoulders at times. I feel weighed down by inadequacies and failures. I am no great success to some people. I am a failure due to my illness and have not achieved much. But, I am learning to deal with these issues and forge forward. I feel, at times, good about myself overall. The feeling is fleeting though. I mostly feel insecure and rather old. I wish I could feel on top of this world. For now, I accept my situation and will make the best of it. Hopefully, I will feel better soon. if either person writes back, I will be touched by their time and thoughtfulness. But, I don't expect much. The room is spinning slowly now. I am unwell and need to take care of myself no matter what.