I don't know, it's different. I didn't get a warm welcome. A lot of people are acting like they don't know nor want to know me. People I thought were friends give me the cold shoulder. People don't want to share my writing or engage with it.

I'm happy to be doing creative things, but I feel kind of like an outsider now. Despite that, I was in this community, active and prominent for almost 3 years. It's like people don't really want to let me in or have anything to do with me. I was really hoping to make friends, but it's not going that easy.

Maybe I don't really belong there. I want to be in an inclusive friendly community, not a place that treats me like I'm not relevant or even wanted around. I wish I could find a better creative community where people are nicer but despite my efforts, I just can't find anything. I've tried several other sites to no avail. I mean, maybe it's me? I'm very friendly and respectful and supportive. So I don't understand why people don't like me. I'm starting to wonder if I'm just better off keeping to myself and being alone. At least when I'm alone and not part of anything, I don't feel excluded, looked down on, judged, or made to feel like my presence doesn't matter. I'm thinking of going back into isolation and just having my own world. I don't seem to fit in anywhere.

And if I'm this unlikable, maybe I shouldn't be around people.