My anxiety was really high today, since I went outside and was at multiple places getting vaccines (got the flu shot and Moderna #3 full-dose jab). I met a new person today for the first time. I spent a considerable amount of time indoors, including getting blood drawn for multiple tests my primary care wanted me to do - all at like 6:40 a.m., long before the vaccines I received later on that morning. I fear getting 'Rona, so I fear going outside at all. I was on high alert all today and worried about germs, diseases, contamination, etc.

But my parts inside helped me (I have DID). So my anxiety was bearable. I tried to focus on safe things, and I also enjoyed being outside, seeing the sun, meeting a new person, seeing other people getting their vaccines and blood drawn, and feeling not so alone in the struggle. No one said anything mean to me today, so that was a plus. My new friend was also very kind and had interesting things to say.

I showered when I returned home, which helped me to feel safe - at least with the thoughts that I washed all the germs, pathogens, and impurities away - except for the good bacteria that we all need. I slept (finally), and I woke up feeling "accomplished."

My anxiety isn't as bad as I thought it would be today.